４月から、ラジオ講座がかなり変わるみたい。
４月号、もう出た頃だけど・・・まだ買ってないです。
いずれ買うけど。

英語は、何のテキストを買うか、思案中。
基礎１は、必ず聞くし、タイマー録音もするけど、今年度もテキスト買うかは疑問。
今年度の基礎２の「PLI」とか、日常動作の英語のパッセージ（散文）がすごくためになったから、内容によっては基礎２を買ってみようかなあ。
もちろん、テキストを買う講座も、テキストなしで練習にも挑戦しますよ。

Yesterday I had a quarrel with my mother.
I'm fed up with it, but the most certain way to avoid it is that I'm obedient to her, act and behave the way she likes.

I may have to quit my study of English!
I may have to give up on aquarium!

That's sooooooooo terrible!!!!

Are hobbies that useless for housekeepking????
Is it that evil to have a lifework out of daily routine?????

I understand my mother's pleasure-after-work policy.
So do my hobbies have to wait until my homemaking tasks are all finished?
Not all hobbies are just hobbies, which refresh us, heal us, and sometimes lead to a job or lifework.

When I was a child, she often went to handicraft shops and even took me with her.
She looked happy preparing for her sewing.
I'd believed sewing was her favorite thing and made her lively, but actually she did her sewing "just for saving clothing costs".
I shivered when I heard it from her...

Duty and responsibility are the source of her motivation?
What a colorless life...

英語練習しながら家事、一度クレーム付けられると、その後どうも「英語は隠れてやるもの」って思いがちになってしまいます。
以前は「1日ン時間やらないと気が済まない」性質だったけど、最近は「母から（時に上の娘からも）隠れる時間をいかに持つか」が先立っています。
独りになれてやっとこ、英語学習に気持ちが向かいます。

2002年から始めたアクアリウムが、今年は新展開。

エビ

---に、すっかりヤラレています(^.^)/~~~

もちろん、お魚も水草も大好きですが・・・水槽の前にたたずんでいる時間が確実に増えてます、英語封じに遭ってから。。。

My three favorite things are foreign languages (esp. English), PC, and aquarium.
They are my mother's loathsome things, too...
What a pity!!!

Since the day my mother scolded me practicing English airing the laundry, I tend to hide from her before starting my English practices of the day.
Of course there are days I can't find any chance to be alone, when I miss them virtually.

Fish tanks heal me a lot when I feel sad, so I've come to spend more time in front of them these days.
Recently I even feel at ease when I'm writing blog entries about aquarium only in Japanese, that makes some of my English-learning friends boring.
I'm really sorry for them, so I try to enjoy pet fish also in English, which is full of aquarium jargon.

Pet shrimps are becoming more and more attractive to me; I must learn English about keeping them.
This site is fun and useful!

I can't help learning English and updating this blog in secret, sometims getting separated from family members.
Anytime I'm leaving home alone in English hours on NHK radio 2, my mother sees me suspiciously and scolds me sometimes that I go out somewhere for skipping my housework. But that's not true.
I just can't back down whenever I go out alone by car.

Listening to radio English programs in my car is really fun!!
Some of you may think I can listen to them at home, but I'm not confident enough to learn English in front of my anti-bilingual education mother, even though she is just narrow-minded.

She is that great in my family, so some mental doctors say that she does make my family stressful to us.
This is a serious problem, but she is not aware of that; she rather persuades us to work hard chirishing routine.
I see what she means, the importance of daily routine, but that's NOT everything.
She may think hobbies makes us less hard-working, but I do think that's only her superstition.
My hobbies heal me, encourage me, motivate me...I can't live without them!
Learning foreign languages is rather my lifework, which is the best training for me to be careful of hidden meanings of each word people utter.
That's why I stick to it.

She loaths not only foreign languages but also aquarium, and does't care for PC either.
She despites my three favorite things.
I try my best to get along with her, even if I suspend them in front of her.
Because I am her only child...

I restarted studying Kiso-Eigo 1 during my housework.
Of course I check if my mother isn't near before starting my practices.
I try not to care even if my elder daughter see me practicing English.
She teases me saying "you're an English bug", but I don't mind.

Every time I study with Kiso-Eigo 1, I find my English has got worse than last year.
All I can do is keep studying.
It takes perseverance and a long time to improve my English, it's clear that each day's practice never ruins English skills however short time one practice is.

I didn't set the hina dolls this Hina-matsuri.
I was mentally too exhausted to enjoy Japanese tradition in early spring.
I know it's very precious and important to cherish traditional cultures and inherit them to my children, but interpreting my elder daughter's mind took much more energy than I imagined.

I really appreciate my "ordinary" daytime with my three children out at school.
But this year, it's me that must change my ordinariness.
I must be strong enough to keep my lifestyle in my family's hardship...

雛人形を飾れなかった、今年のひな祭り。
気になっていたといえば、なっていた。
だけど、体が動かない・・・

１月半ばに、（かつての）いつものごとく、トークマスターⅡを身につけて、基礎英語１の録音ファイルを流し、テキストを見ないでもごもご練習しながらの家事中に

家事をさぼるために英語の勉強するって言うの？？？

との、母の屈辱的な言葉。

しつこいのは十分承知。
でも、この屈辱感を忘れたくても忘れられないから、乗り越えらるその日まで、何かの折に書いてしまうだろうなあ。

母に英語を封じられ（英語学習してない人には信じられないだろうが、英語練習しながらのほうが家事を気分よくできるのだ）、おまけに上の娘が年中家にいるほうが普通になってしまった我が家。

いつも誰かに見られてる気がしてならない。